Well, it seems I posted my 200th blog entry without even realizing it. This one makes 201. Just like me to overlook such a milestone.
So today, part of it anyway, was one fuck-a-doodle of a day, lemme tell ya. I won't go into the sordid details, but suffice it to say that it entailed me being accused in a very loud voice of being a negligent, ineffectual liar, with nary a chance to get a word in edgewise to defend myself. When it was all over, I was shaking like a leaf, wanted to cry, felt sick to my stomach, and my cranium felt like the Incredible Hulk was using it as a stress ball.
The worst part of it was, it was all completely unjustified. I'm the first to admit I'm wrong when I know I'm wrong. I'll even usually concede that I *might* be wrong, even if I'm mostly sure I'm right. But when I *know* I'm right, don't you *dare* leap down my throat and accuse me of things that aren't my fault. I spent too many years with a man who treated me that way every day to just lie down for that kind of shit anymore.
Maybe that's why I get so defensive these days when I feel I'm being attacked. I mean, if you have to say something critical to me, then say it. Use a calm tone of voice and unthreatening body language. I will listen and return the respectful behavior. But don't hurl accusations at me while you're standing there leaning toward me like you're going to strike me. Come on now. You do that, and you're just going to get antagonistic behavior in return. Sorry...can't help it. It seems to have become hard-wired into me.
I spent the rest of the afternoon just trying to calm down and not cry anytime anyone came near me looking or sounding even slightly sympathetic.
Luckily, the T-girl and I had made arrangements to go see Iron Man tonight. Oh yes. Robert Downey Lickable Jr. Look at me with those big brown eyes and I'll do anything for you, honey. And he has gotten very buff for this role. Oh my yes. Even his hands are buff. Growr.
Other than that, it was a great flick. Lots of action, not a single moment when you started thinking about the dirty dishes in the sink at home or the email you were supposed to return. Or the ...never mind. Said I wasn't going to go into details about that.
Lots of explosions, noise, great music, funny lines, GREAT special effects (I'm a SFX slut...love it). Jeff Bridges was perfect as the bad guy. Oops...sorry for the spoiler. But come on, all you gotta do is look at him in his very first scene to know he's going to wind up on the wrong side of sweetness and light. Another thing you can tell in HER very first scene is that Gwyneth Paltrow's Pepper Potts is in serious heat for her boss, the character being played by the aforementioned RDJr. As the credits rolled, her name swept up the screen. T-girl turned to me and said "I think this is the first role I've actually *liked* her in." I swatted her and said STOP READING MY MIND! Seriously, the woman is one scary psychic mindreader. She does it to me all the time. I had a boyfriend who used to do that to me a lot. I dumped him. Don't worry Tonia ;-)
So now I'm completely exhausted from the tension of the day. But as the only thing I could think of six hours ago that I thought might make me feel better was a stiff drink and a vigorous shagging, I'm staying up for a while to indulge myself in the only one of those two vices I can actually do anything about.
Sadly, I must say "cheers!"
2 comments:
Oh my ! what a day ... don't you hate those assholes of the world ... the kind that seem to thrive on hearing there own idiotic, mean rantings. I'm happy that you ended the day in the movie theatre as it does seem you are a bit of a movie "buff" (and in more ways than one).
I have to tell you when I read the title of this post and then scanned down to the image I thought perhaps it might be a historic tale of the Toronto Ms Wintour or our very own The Devil Wears Calvin Klein ... Madame Istona - do you see the resemblance ?? hee hee xo, S.
*disclaimer - I must say that I personally was never on the receiving end of her pillness-ness but I witnessed a plenty.
LOL, newp, wasn't taking a stroll down memory lane. I probably would have preferred to have been though! That pic does look a lot like her in the day though, now that you mention it! LOL. Can't imagine her ever getting so stressed out though.
I never witnessed any of Fearless Leader's tirades. All I remember of her is being slightly terrified of her, so I guess her reputation had reached me also. I guess I was too low on the totem pole for her to concern herself with ;-)
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